My Aha Moment

It has been about 30 days since my last post.  In that time, I have learned alot more about myself and how I react to life's challenges.  When I think back to an extremely stressful week, like I just had, I wonder how I ever got through it.  I tweeted yesterday, "Is it weird that I am so good at functioning under chaotic conditions & when things start 2 calm down, I start 2 unravel & sabotage myself!"


I realize that I am continuously striving for balance in my life.  In that quest, I have figured out that I need to shift some of the focus on myself instead of putting my goals, dreams and desires last and in some cases, completely on hold.


Two weeks ago I made a commitment to myself and along with my mom and aunt, I rejoined Weight Watchers.  They were so happy when I had suggested we go because they had put their own needs aside to focus on everyone else.   


During my first week of Weight Watchers, I followed the plan by keeping track of what I ate, I  exercised, drank my water, and met other remaining healthy guidelines of the program.  My commitment resulted in weight loss.  


The second week did not go as smoothly as the first.  This morning's weigh in yeilded unfavorable results.  I was up 2.6 lbs.  (Last week I lost 2.8 lbs.)  So my net loss is 0.2 lbs.  While I can complain that this sucks, its the lesson I learned that adds value to my experience.


I knew going into this morning's weigh in that I was going to be up so I took the hit.   I am not surprised in the least bit.  I missed some workouts, felt hungrier and had a hard time with portion control during my dinner meals.  That in itself has taught me to focus on what's important.  It is important for me to make the time to do the things I need to do so I can be successful.  


So now as I go through this week ahead, I am concentrating on the following mini-goals. 

1. Journaling my meals
2. Exercising
3. Drinking Water 

I am not perfect, I am real!  I struggle with many things, but in the end, I know that being prepared and aware of my choices are the two biggest contributors to my success.


Here's to a successful week!