My week, INTENSIFIED!

This past week has been extremely stressful.  My dad was hospitalized on Thursday with a failing heart.  And while I'm trying to deal with this new situation, my present situation of raising a daughter with autism is just completely crushing me.  Every little thing seems so difficult.  As her mom, I feel her pain first hand.  She has a daily presence on social media and it makes it that much more difficult when she reads that someone she knows is getting their permit to drive a car, having a boyfriend and getting a job.  At 16, these are the 3 things she wants the most.  The hardest part is that she blames me for all she doesn't have.  Its hard not to get emotional knowing each day something could set her off.

Up until now this has been a long road and I know my journey as her mom must go on.  I know I must be strong to help her get through these difficult times as I try to guide her, cheer her up, drive her, help her and love her through it all.  It is not an easy task.

My P90X/INSANITY hybrid has been my salvation.  It has been my rock during my most darkest days.  I've been working out in the morning while everyone is still asleep so I can focus on me and get my mind straight for the rest of my day.  Raising 2 teens (both with special needs; 1 more than the other), working 20+ hours outside the home, helping my dad run his business, and trying to run a household (I say trying cause its difficult trying to keep all these balls in the air).

Each week I have been diligently weighing in at my local Weight Watchers.  Last weekend I went  off track but managed to salvage the rest of the week by religiously documenting my meals to one other person who has helped me keep myself accountable to me.  I have promised myself I would keep all systems in place to keep me moving forward.  The old me would have binged by now and completely unraveled.  What's different about this summer is that I have positioned myself to help others and they in turn, help me.  I can't suggest someone do something that I'm not doing.  

I am heading into the final phase of my hybrid, Week 9 will go something like this:

Day 57 Chest & Back
Day 58 Max Interval Plyo
Day 59 Shoulders & Arms/Cardio Abs
Day 60 Yoga X
Day 61 Max Interval Plyo which will be scratched and replaced w/Legs & Back (need more leg work)
Day 62 Max Cardio Conditioning & Abs
Day 63 Stretch